Day One. The Airport- Journey to Costa Rica
It's a funny feeling leaving everything you've ever known behind. Last on my checklist of things to do was to survive the heartbreaking look on my dad's face. Was that ever a sight not to forget. I remember walking away from the car watching him wiping away his tears, red face and quivering lips. I stayed strong and let a few tears drop but I knew that everything would be okay. I was trying to be strong in the moment. Right now I feel calm, although extrememly emotional as I get lost in my thoughts. The warm sun is caressing my face, allowing me to take comfort in my current situation and state of being.
I couldn't have asked for a better day to fly on. It's 8:00 am or so I'm told. I currently do not have a watch, cell phone or computer. I suppose a watch will be an important purchase for me upon arrival.
I think the saddness comes from a lack of security, lack of knowledge for what the future holds and although these are the same feelings I associate with fear and anxiety, it also exhilerates me in a way I simply cannot describe. I just feel as though this is truly the beginning to my life, like I haven't yet really lived. My family, friends, and all those in between have shaped, shifted and moulded me into the strong young person I am right in this very moment. I have hope that those who I love really know how deep it is, that they never doubt or worry. Life is about risk, it's a gigantic adventure and yeah sometimes, quite often I've let anxiety take over my ability to relax and remain in the preset of each moment, I know I will wind down in time. I have 365 days to do that. Believe in the power of positive energy and open your heart to all. LOVE LOVE LOVE SPREAD THE LOVE.
The Flight- Journey to Costa Rica
F A C T : This is the very first journal entry from my first travel journal. ON THE ROAD of my solo backpacking adventure in 2011 from
Costa Rica-Panama-Colombia-Ecuador-Peru-Bolivia-Argentina-Uruguay-Brazil-and back to Costa Rica again.
Spanish. Surf. Brazilian Jiu Jitsu. Sand. Sun. Growth. Self-Discovery. Freedom. Perspective. Wisdom. Experience. Flirt. Curiosity. Desire. Temptations. Exploration. Maturity. Insight. Connection. Spirituality. Self-Love.
Wow, what an incredible journey already. I met a sun dancer today; he was so wise, he could tell things about me. I've always been a little nervous of flying, so originally I had booked an aisle seat. Two nights before my flight I decided it was time to let go of these little alterations I constantly made to the circumstances in my life. I chose a window seat and that was my final decision. Had I sat in that aisle seat I likely wouldn't have ever met Dan Beggs. As the turbulance picked up he asked me very politely if I'd like to hold his hand. Within an instance, I relaxed my shoulders and reached to him. We sat in silence, hand in hand as a wave of safe, comfortable and positive energy flowed through me. We bonded over the next hours of the flight and what brought a smile to my face was to think about how many wonderful people I was going to meet. Openness is a beautiful quality. There is such an immense strength found in those who can leave behind reservations and give into a moment-even with a stranger.